:: I'm an idiot (don't say it. I know ya wanna)... ::
Last night it was so late that I forgot to tell you about a little last-minute decision of mine that was beyond crazy. Last night when our Praise Band was practicing, we were short a couple people. Cori showed up late, Whitney wasn't there, and Kelsey was at All-State. Well, there is this one song that Tim (our Youth Minister and the guitarist in our band) decided we would sing. And Kelsey always sings this harmony during the chorus. But she wasn't there and no one was singing it.
So we're playing, actually performing, when I suddenly realize how different it sounds without Kelsey's harmonies. And then I think, Hey, someone should fill in for her while she's gone. And then I completely lose it.
Hey, I know how the harmonies go. I sing 'em all the time at home just for the fun. Why don't I fill in?
And just as I'm thinking this, we're coming up on the chorus and while my brain suddenly thinks Bad idea!, it's way too late to get the message to my mouth and it keeps going. So there I am, singing a harmony (that I've only ever sung in the complete solitude of my room) into a mic with about fifty people listening without having practiced this with the band and having never even discussed the possibility that one of us should sing Kelsey's part. I mean, Cori or Alaina or my sister would have been just as well-qualified to sing Kelsey's part while she was gone. And I got really mad at myself after the fact, felt totally self-conscious afterward, and my face flushed as red as a lobster (I'm assuming, I didn't really see).
But while I was singing, it felt great. It was so spur-of-the-moment, and I really felt the part, if you know what I mean. And even though I think it would've been so much better to have practiced beforehand, no one said anything like, "Why'd you do that, Nina?" or "Couldn't you have told us or something?" In fact, no one but my sister said anything at all.
Maybe they didn't know it was me...
So we're playing, actually performing, when I suddenly realize how different it sounds without Kelsey's harmonies. And then I think, Hey, someone should fill in for her while she's gone. And then I completely lose it.
Hey, I know how the harmonies go. I sing 'em all the time at home just for the fun. Why don't I fill in?
And just as I'm thinking this, we're coming up on the chorus and while my brain suddenly thinks Bad idea!, it's way too late to get the message to my mouth and it keeps going. So there I am, singing a harmony (that I've only ever sung in the complete solitude of my room) into a mic with about fifty people listening without having practiced this with the band and having never even discussed the possibility that one of us should sing Kelsey's part. I mean, Cori or Alaina or my sister would have been just as well-qualified to sing Kelsey's part while she was gone. And I got really mad at myself after the fact, felt totally self-conscious afterward, and my face flushed as red as a lobster (I'm assuming, I didn't really see).
But while I was singing, it felt great. It was so spur-of-the-moment, and I really felt the part, if you know what I mean. And even though I think it would've been so much better to have practiced beforehand, no one said anything like, "Why'd you do that, Nina?" or "Couldn't you have told us or something?" In fact, no one but my sister said anything at all.
Maybe they didn't know it was me...
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